Once upon a time, I lost my will to live. Life became too hard to endure and even after therapy, counseling, medications, support groups, I found myself helpless and hopeless. 

Even the medication my Doctor's prescribed me wasn't enough to help my life from falling apart into an infinite number of pieces. I was a widow with two young children, fresh out of an abusive relationships with a narcissist who I met after my husband died. My friends betrayed me at one of my lowest moments, and I was completely alone feeling unworthy of being a Mom to my baby boys. I was convinced that I was unloveable and figured the world would be better off without me. 

A force greater than me took over and I became too weak to hold the gun. My hand went limp and it fell to the floor beside me. Out of nowhere - a voice spoke to me and said:

I was furious and out of my mind because I'd been trying to heal for decades- so I screamed at the top of my lungs: "WTF does healing mean anyway!?!" As soon as I finished, something entered my body. 

And all I could see was the present - eternal now moment. In a flash instant I had more clarity than I'd ever had before in my entire life and I said aloud: "Wait - what does healing mean, anyway?"

My lowest
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From that moment on - I stopped at nothing to find the answer. And, along my journey I awakened to who I really am: A Healer & Creator. Today, I'm one of the happiest women I know - remarried to the second man of my dreams, a fantastic mom to 4 fantastic kids, and I'm living my soul's purpose abundantly - & yes, I am damn proud!